IF YOU WANT TO BE HAPPY THEN BE HAPPY!
-BEGONIA
Oct
01
so i just came back from a two hour work out…and man do i feel hella good!!! relief..it has been a rough couple of weeks for me and luckily i have been able to pull through…its almost 2am but im hella re-energized! i know i should do some homework but my notes my notebooks my everything is all over the place I wouldnt know whre to start I would be up till like 5am just trying to organize ..ahahah…so i guess right now im just going to relax enjoy my rush of endorphins till i tire myself out and go to bed..untill the next time…
Mom you raise me up….im so blessed to have you!
I miss my cousin Rhea…
My family…I miss each and everyone one of you..it gets lonely in the bay sometimes…
My friends…im thankful for having you peeps in my life and allowing me to be in yours…
Sep
21
This weekend was eventful..although I didnt get shit done It was a dope relaxing weekend that ive been needing after these damn long weeks..Im at working the 6th day of this week yes 6th day!..UGHHHHHHH…but yes Im relaxed and excited for the week to come coz our internship starts this Monday…Its GO time baby! ahahah…Well Yesterday Friends and I watched another BOMB Tyler Perry movie! I love his movies man..I can watch them over and over again!…anyways Yesterday we watched “A Family that Preys” and a quote that stuck in my head was when she asked this one lady ….
are you LIVIN’ or are you EXISTING?
HMMMM…ponder ponder ponder on THAT! ahaha coz I sure have been…
Sep
17
Each day i find myself growing…growing into a bigger and better person than i was the week before, the month before, the year before, the day before…
“yes I was burned but I called it a lesson learned”
you better preach Alicia Keys! hahaha…
Sep
16
I dont know what it is but I think God has blessed me with impeccable instincts…
sometimes it makes me think though..is this a good thing or a bad thing?
so I swam last night which was a great feeling.. I think working out is just GOOD period..and no im not saying that just because I work at a gym haha but from my experiences lately..although I find myself to be tired, overwhelmed, sometimes even angry..I just go work out ..run…swim..play tennis..run bleachers..all have been great outlets for me to brighten up my mood and uplift my spirits! try it out peeps! I DARE U…endorphins are a good addiction..lol
I really realized that this summer and past year has really changed me… I realized that I have honestly grown so much as an individual… things that I would have never considered doing i’ve done or I’m in the process of doing… ideas that I would bypass have been ones that i have been open to now.. I have not let anger dominate my being
Situations or occurences Past, Present and Future no longer hold me back or fester in my mind but rather I have accepted it and have allowed it to shape me to be a better person. I am no longer a prisoner of my past nor a slave to my future.
This summer has taught me to see the bigger scope of life and has enabled me to look at life in a variety of lenses which therefore has perpetuated this live life in the now mentality because essentially NOW is all we are guaranteed. I think as human beings we preoccupy ourselves heavily on holding on to anger, resentment, grudges, revenge, greed, bitterness and this list goes on…. We carry such emotional baggage which for some is difficult to let go and is ok because everyone is different we all are trying to catch different flights so we all drop our luggage off at different times. However, sometimes we allow this baggae to overtake us and prevent us from simply living life it prevents us from getting the BEST out of life.
Tragically, losing my closest cousin this summer has taught me to live life as if it were your last..telling the people you love that you love them …forgiving those who have wronged you… cherish those you are close to… for tomorrow is never promised we must love live and laugh as if it were our last !!! life is a gift and we so seldomly realize that. Now I appreciate the little things in life that really matter. Time is of the essence and unfortunately for me and probably for others it took something like losing my cousin or losing anyone close to you to realize what we really value in life…my family and my friends surpass all the material and superficial things in the world these tangible obsessions can’t surmount to my family and friends. They are what essentially bring me happiness and I am blessed to have such great people in my life. Although extravagance is desired I now see that simplicity is a virtue. We all constantly grow and change and I am a testimony to that I believe it is through this growth and change that we as humans are able to evolve for the better in so many levels.
Sep
15
This weekend was a good one..academically it wasn’t productive but socially it was re-invigorating…ahaha…Hung out with old friends..got some sleep back…started fixing up my room(still a mess but a good mess)… partied with people i havnt partied with in days.. got to see san francisco again..felt like i was new to the city again hahaha brought back good memories of why I moved up here..thnx to Kayla’s bf Kirch!…went to church..ran lots of errands(thnx drea!)..played some tennis…had an enlightening core meeting.. this weekend was more revitalizing than ever..a blessing in disguise…re-energized for another long week to come…life is good although I still have a few quams I know things will work itself out… I havn’t been this happy in a while..a good feeling indeed!
Sep
11
So ever since this semester has started and even a little bit prior to it starting My life feels like its speeding by so fast like im on 15th gear or something. It’s been hella crazy and its only been like what ? 2nd-3rd week of school? UGHHH… i have too many things im trying to juggle..going to school full-time, working 30-35 hours a week, full time PACE coordinator, an office manager for the IEEC, and working out too..Lifes been going by so quick sometimes I forget to eat, I forget what day it is, even showering!(syke! thats grosss…and unGucci) ahahah…but yeah I wanna Pump the brakes or pull on the E-brake but fuck I cant FIND Itttt!!!
in a way it feels good to always be busy co’z then Im pressured to get my shit done but man its stressful and im so sleep deprived!!! I just pray my body doesnt give up on me!.ughhhhhhh….somebody SAVE ME!
Sep
09
“it is much better to be hated for who you are then to be loved for who you are not”
Sep
08
SHUN ANGER, LET GO OF PRIDE
BREAK OUT OF EVERY SHACKLE,
WHOEVER IS NOT TIED TO POSSESSIONS,
CLINGING NEITHER TO BODY NOR MIND
IS NEVER IN BONDAGE.
WHERE THERE IS ANGER, APPLY LOVING KINDNESS
WHERE THERE IS EVIL, OFFER GOOD
WHERE THERE IS STINGINESS, BE GENEROUS.
WHERE THERE ARE LIES, BE TRUTHFUL.
– THE DHAMMAPADA
